“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
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Lao Tzu (via forever—scarred)

I am a very anxious person….learning to live in the present.

(Source: cavum, via ashleythefox)

It’s not that i can’t do this, or even that i don’t want to do this. I think it’s that i’ve never done things this way before so i don’t know how to do this and i’m learning as we go. I’ve always been so used to being right there, right in the thick of things. Always the one who pays attention to detail and always the one concerned for you. Always wrapped up in the ones i’m with. So now i’m asked to give some space, which i understand and am completely ok with, but because of the way i am i’m not used to backing off. Emotionally i can’t really retract what i feel, but i can get a grip on it. I can hold it off from developing into anything more. But me as the person i am, my character is not used to not taking care of what is hers. Sometimes i feel like i’m being neglectful, but i shouldn’t. This is what was wanted from me and i can do nothing but what i’m asked if i want any chance of my hopes. Is it really me who feels neglectful? All i know is that i want this and for some ungodly reason i always love putting myself through challenges when it comes to my relationships. I’m here to support, care, and be a crutch whenever i can. It’s what i do best :)